| actually .. i dont wana use this one!! >:o sorry~~ ^_^ |
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| blehhh.. r u happy?
if not ..
be happy~
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| blehhh.. r u happy?
if not ..
be happy~
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| It's been a tough week.. This past week was the week of Passion. And during this week, I tried and prayed to God to help to not sin and just look up to him and praise him. I also planned to fast and pray to him and only him. During this one past week.. so much and maybe even TOO much things have happened to me. The worst sin that i've commited is thinking of taking my own life by taking pills or even jst going out on the street into the highway. After all that praying and all those tears that fell down my face.. I realized God was testing me. If my bf, my family members, and/or even my friends could make me wana commit such a sin and they did. over the week i've lost 2 people. 1 will be bak around wednsday nite but the other won't be bak.. i've lost my grandfather nd due to that my mom had to leave also.. you may even think that my mom leaving isn't losing but to me.. it's like i'm lending my life to someone. I depend my mom on mostly everything.. food, clothes, money, entertainment, love, friendship.. and my grandfahter is no longer alive in this world but due to him leaving this world, my mom had to leave this country and fly half way around the world, and my dad's stressing out because of this. When my mom left to Korea, I felt as if I was turned into 3 children's mother.. I cooked, i cleaned, but out of all the things i did, one thing i couldn't do was make my dad feel any better. There was NOTHING i could do and that tore me apart. The only thing i COULD do was make bap, do bbahlae, but the only thing i couldn't do was give comfort. I couldn't comfort him because the only thing that could've comforted him was my mom. Now, i kno atleast a lil' how important a mom's job is and how important a mom's presence is in life. |
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| I saw HellBoy today.. it was gooooooood~ hehe but no meaning to it.. it was jst a reali good movie!! ^^ hehe well leave many many propz~ |
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